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Elizabeth (Ella). A 25-year-old American who's really more Spanish than she is American. Sangre americana, corazón español, alma catalana. Quadri-lingual (English. Spanish. Catalan. French.), Third-Culture Kid. Missionary Kid. Christian. Single and not looking. FC Barcelona. Athletic Bilbao. La Roja. Future egarenca. Loves all things Basque and Catalan.

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aserioushouse replied to your post:get over yourself. i doubt anyone would notice you at a bar while el classico is on. get your head out of your ass.

WTF RUDE ANON GTFO. Haha the anon is just insecure because no one would notice THEM in a bar when El Clasico is on. Clearly xD Guys can be creeps…and guys in bars? Ahaha, I’d be careful - it’d probably be fun, but just look out for the creepers :)

Like…to me, it’s not even about me thinking I’m so awesome that when I walk in the door every guy’s head’s going to turn and it’ll be like that part in New Moon where Bella cuts herself and Jasper jumps on her all blood-crazed.  Good Lord.  I’m not that delusional.  I am just genuinely insecure in large crowds, especially when I’m there for a purpose, when I’m there for the community but I don’t know anyone, and don’t have anyone I know to really talk to.  It’s not even really about the guys themselves because I can actually get along really well with guys, and I can even talk about football with them, too.  It’s the fact that I’ll just feel so awkward the entire time because I haven’t even been here long enough to really get to know people and the culture is different than what I’m used to, and I don’t even know if I can expect the same thing in a pub up here than I could in the US or even Spain.

I’m still considering going, actually, since I may be getting a few contacts now from a person I do trust in the area and I’m willing to take the chance (It does sound a tad hypocritical I admit to be willing to meet up with “friends of a friend” who I don’t know, but at least there’s still one thing in common, that one friend, which is easier than just going “Um…I just moved here, I love football, I’m a Barça fan…” when someone starts talking to you.).  It’s just that in a completely unfamiliar situation like this, what I’d be getting into if I were to just find a random bar on the street and walk in, yes, I would feel awkward and uncomfortable and even insecure.