i agree it's quite arrogant that you say you would feel "scared" to go to the pub. if that's the way you feel, just don't go. simple. and i don't see how you can generalise that much to assume that you're going to get chatted up. what if the men are far too interested in the football to even glance at you?
i started following you because I'm living in Catalunya and found your insights about the area and the language quite interesting. i didn't follow you to read about what eyeshadow you bought or how scared you are to go to a pub.
it's your blog, of course you can write what you want, but I think all this i'm-scared-of-drunk-men-Clásico business may be just for the attention and you'll lose a lot of followers if you carry on.
i'm not trying to be malicious, that's just how i see it. ‒ Anonyme

but I think all this i’m-scared-of-drunk-men-Clásico business may be just for the attention and you’ll lose a lot of followers if you carry on.

I understand your perspective, but I honestly don’t care how many followers I have or don’t have.  I think it’s incredibly obnoxious when people talk and complain about how many followers they have (sometimes I’ll mention it, usually when I have an even number that I like, but in general, I really don’t care).

The thing is, regardless of the football, I get nervous in crowds, especially if I don’t know anyone.  I’m shy and introverted by nature and don’t like going out in public unless I’m going for a walk in which case I can just avoid people, don’t need to talk to them.  Watching a football game, people talk, people socialize (who’s ever actually been able to hear commentary when they go to watch a sporting event at a bar because people are talking so loud?), especially when it’s a big match like this one is.  I like going to public places like that with friends, with people I know, and getting into conversations with other people when I feel comfortable in my surroundings.  So I’m insecure.  Isn’t everyone at some point or another?  Is the fact that I actually talk about my insecurity in going to a public place where there is alcohol and heightened emotions bothersome, or is it something else?

To be perfectly honest, I didn’t think people actually cared enough about the fact that I’m intimidated by large groups, especially guys.  Normally that’s the kind of stuff people skim over and ignore.  So kudos to you and the previous anon for caring enough to tell me how I both have my head up my ass and how I’m going to lose followers.  One is an opinion, and the second is something that you assume I care about as well, when in reality, I don’t care that much about it.  I could lose 100 followers today and I’ll wake up tomorrow, see it, shrug, maybe dwell over it in the living room for a little while, and just let it go, because those people didn’t care enough, and therefore I shouldn’t care either.

And honestly, it really doesn’t bother me that you’re telling me now that you don’t want to read about what eyeshadow I bought the other day.  It’s not like it’s something I post about all the time, neither is the whole “I’m scared about going to a pub” thing.  Don’t like it, don’t read it, seriously.  I’m not going to kowtow to what other people want me to post about.  It’s my blog.  You don’t have to follow me if you don’t want to, you don’t have to keep following me if you don’t want to.

Basically what I’m saying is, sure, I like people to like me and all that like everyone does, but what would you want me to say?  That I’m sorry?  That I’m sorry for actually talking about something I do genuinely feel insecure about?  I can also assure you that if I did care about the followers I probably wouldn’t have posted it.  Or maybe I would have.  I don’t know.

One of the reasons why I do post random crap about my personal life that most people probably don’t care about (and I realize this when I post it) is because I don’t like following people who never talk about their personal lives.  I may not be necessarily interested in the exact eyeshadow they bought, but I like the people I follow to have a life out of whatever it is they normally post about.  It makes things a lot more personal for me and I like that.  I don’t obligate anyone to feel the same way about the people they follow, but they can always skip posts they’re not interested in, as I do all the time, or they can unfollow me.  I’m not going to pitch a fit about it.